After 5 years of being a stay-at-home mom, I found the wonder of mothering slowly starting to get crowded out by the mundane feeling. I realized our world seems to surround people with the negative, and complaining about blessings seems totally acceptable. So I decided to fight against that "normalcy" and focus only on the positive. I look back to my first year as a mom when everything was new and keeping house was fun and I aim to have that attitude again. This blog is my outlet to showcase the daily miracles that surround me in my blessed life as a stay-at-home mom so that I will never forget the wonder of it all.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

From My Archives

August 9, 2005


You are the culmination of all my dreams. You have made me the person I’ve wanted to be since I was a child; a mother. On the day you were born, you opened my eyes to God’s grace and blessings He bestows on His people. The day you were born, a covering was lifted from my eyes, and for the first time, I could see just how great, how loving, how selfless, and how mighty God’s sacrifice to us is - His son. For as I held you in my arms, so new to the world, I understood how much God had to give up, not to mention to such brutality. I cry out to God on nights when I have fearful thoughts of outliving you, or of something horrible happening to you. I will protect you with every fiber that is in my body, partly out of love, and partly out of the shame of the knowledge that I....and you...all our brutally took the life of God’s perfect son, Jesus. I live with a buried fear of something bad happening to you. But God, He lived with the knowledge that something horrible would befall His perfect son’s life. Every day of His life, God looked down on Jesus, His only son, with that horrible knowledge - the knowledge His son would have to die for us, sinners. I did not understand the enormity of His sacrifice, the raw emotion of it, until I had you, my son. You have opened my eyes to the purest form of God’s love I’ve ever received. Out of fear and reverence to my Great Father Lord, I pray you will see His love so purely one day too. Be devoted to God, for as much as I love you, I could never come close to loving you as mightily, and selflessly as your Lord loves you. For I would never be able to sacrifice you, my son, for another - but the Lord your God already has sacrificed His son for you.

I love you,


**** written 3 months after becoming a Mommy ****

1 comment:

  1. WOW!!! That's all I can say!...that and I'm ready to cry now :0)....this is going to be so awesome for Logan as he grows up!