Another bad day of homeschooling. Today, even Logan was discouraged. I'm angry, he cried, I feel ready to throw in the towel.
I decided to throw aside the heavy curriculum which made us sit side by side at the table for HOURS yesterday, SLOWLY walking through each tiny step. I have two other kids. I can't sit at a table for HOURS. And I don't want Logan to either. He's six! So, today I asked he and Lissy what they'd like to learn about. Butterflies, dragons, and owls were the choices. So I had Logan write down each of the choices (which was like pulling teeth), and we put them in a basket. We drew a card and it was "butterfly". So we started to learn about butterflies. Things were good then (other than the pulling teeth incident), and the kids were excited. We did an art project and then I decided to teach them how to draw a butterfly in the simple form of drawing two B's, one correctly and one backwards, and putting them together to make a butterfly. I asked Logan to put his pencil at the top of the B, he froze. He just couldn't do it. ????!!!! This is common. And it frustrates me to no end. How am I supposed to teach him how to read if he can't follow the simple instruction, "put your pencil at the top of the B"? I feel so lost with this. I hate the thought of him in public school but I refuse to homeschool if it means me ending in wanting to get out of the house for a break, and he in tears. So far, this year is getting off to a horrible start.
After 5 years of being a stay-at-home mom, I found the wonder of mothering slowly starting to get crowded out by the mundane feeling. I realized our world seems to surround people with the negative, and complaining about blessings seems totally acceptable. So I decided to fight against that "normalcy" and focus only on the positive. I look back to my first year as a mom when everything was new and keeping house was fun and I aim to have that attitude again. This blog is my outlet to showcase the daily miracles that surround me in my blessed life as a stay-at-home mom so that I will never forget the wonder of it all.